I am always disappointed when I check out other peoples blogs and they haven’t updated it, sometimes it has only been a day but the feeling is still there. Yet here I am being a slacker. Sometimes I am tired and I have done some projects I would like to post but keep forgetting to, I will blame all of that on pregnancy. In all honesty, sometimes I don’t feel things are blog worthy, like it needs to be cute, helpful or really great but some of our far away family reads this for updates so I need to get over that, because I really do enjoy blogging.
Things are going well with baby reed in the oven. We had our big appointment this week. Usually it happens at 20 wks but we were at 19w 3d. We have had 4 ultrasounds during this pregnancy, because we have a stubborn kid that likes to give us scares already, and each time we have been right on schedule for our due date or maybe even a little ahead of schedule. However, this ultrasound the baby was only measuring 18 wks, I don’t know if my Dr. will change our due date but it kind of saddens me to think it could be longer before we meet him. From what we heard in the ultrasound everything is going well and we got a clear shot that he is for sure a boy! We got to watch the heart beating, we have seen a light flutter before but actually seeing the heart beating was pretty amazing! I love getting to see our little one. I think I can feel him a little, not always positive but my Dr. said I will know for sure by the next appointment. Things have been quite easy so I always wonder if everything is okay. I think since it took so long to actually get pregnant, I have this fear in the back of my mind that something will go wrong and we are just waiting for it to happen. Thankfully that hasn’t been the case and the further along we get, the better I feel and the more it sinks in, how real it all is.
He sure is cute already though! This was the best shot we got. It is amazing how much you can already love something you have never met or haven’t even named yet!
I posted some nursery designs plans before but then we started realizing how loud our neighbors can be. One day the frames we have hanging on the wall up our staircase had fallen to the ground. They have a toddler and run around and play a lot. The office that we were planning on converting to a nursery shares a wall with those neighbors. We have decided to switch the rooms so the blue office will be our guest bedroom / craft room and the current craft room will become the nursery. I recently painted the craft room with 18″ horizontal stripes and the colors are very different than the blue so it is changing my plans. We have plenty of time on that and I am excited to get to work on it!
One of my coworkers was due July 12 but had her baby early on May 18. She and I just had a conversation about how neither of us had bought anything, I kept thinking if she isn’t worried than I won’t worry because she is due before me. Well when the baby came early, (everything is good with mom and baby BTW) it lit my fire to start on the basics. We decided a little while ago to buy as much second hand as we can. There are so many baby things, everything is so expensive and the kid is going to grow it out quickly so why not save a little. I love that we are saving money and I can refinish things with the same paint color. Plus it has been really easy to look up the model of products to read reviews and learn about safety and also get an idea on pricing to help negotiate a little. I already feel better getting a few things and have some nice projects to work on for the nursery!
This whole process hasn’t been what is expected at all. It took forever to get pregnant and I just thought I would be so sick and have all of these symptoms. In addition to all of that, there are weird things going on with family that I never expected and I just can’t help but feel that we are all missing out on sharing this time. This is my first kid and the first grand kid and I just really imagined everything so different. It makes me so sad and overwhelms me at times. I try not to let it depress me too much but it isn’t something you can just ignore. I am extremely excited and so look forward to what is to come but this weighs heavily on me. I love that Stephen is so involved and loving, I really never imagined or knew that someone could fit me so perfectly. He is going to be an amazing dad and I am so excited to start our family together and start new traditions.
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